carebears!

having a go at the games

where all the rides are...

some stupid horror ride which was PATHETIC and NOT SCARY. i laughed the whole way through! waste of money. grrrr.

... she went for this ride! it hangs you down UPSIDE DOWN for at least half a minute!

the rest of us gaping at her sailing through mid air

after ira's show of bravery.. the guys refused to be outdone.

hence this. they went for the ride as well.

ferris wheel!

in front of some shops.. can't really remember what they were.

Hui:

this week has been quite happening for me. i like e way it is man. =D

lets backtrack to sunday. like i said in one of my previous posts, met up with eny and mei at toa payoh. took lots of pics together at mos burger. silly + funny poses. spent quite a long time there cos of e photo-taking session lor.. and crapped around. wah that eny.. really very talkative. e moment she comes, she tok non-stop! i noe i'm not e very quiet type also but i'm jus being crappy. she's talkative. i think that's e difference. haha =x anyhow, she suggested going kbox. i looked at my watch and it says 9pm wor. but we went ahead anyway =x eny said i mus be more daring and thick-skinned like mei and her when it comes to singing. wahaha.. overall i think not that bad bah.. sang songs until 12+am then go home. shared a cab with mei and eny.

monday...
met up with da ge to update him abt myself. wanted him to update me abt himself but seems like nothing interesting is going on in his life. not tt i'm trying to say he has a boring life, jus tt it may be a good thing as well? free from troubles and worries mah. we "da bao" some dim sum and went esplanade to have our chit-chatting session. firstly, i told him wad he wanna noe in details. u guys noe me well, when i go into details, i can be very detailed and long-winded. wahaha.. according to wad he told mei, he said i spent 3hours toking. from 8-11. where got so kua zhang lor! and u noe wad? he added something even more kua zhang. he said i talked abt e thing he wanna noe for 30mins and i started to tok abt someone else for 2.5hours. man, i dun told mei not to believe him. how can he say such a thing.. haha =x

tuesday..
met up with mei for dinner, and she told me abt her victim. haiz, feeling like singing that "ai wo de zi ge" by SHE and "san jiao lian" by candy lo for her. seems like e headshot is healing ya? maybe her victim was wearing a bullet-proof helmet. (am being "hua zhong you hua" here.. toking in riddles. =P) well... at least she din miss e target.. wad abt me? =|

wedesday (yesterday)..
Mei & taitai took away my second time! she brought me (and Eny) to this Club Momo somewhere near clarke quay. i noe its near clarke quay cos i saw e roadname. Magazine Road. it look damn familiar cos i remembered walking along tt road with ting. ting and i walked from suntec to there. and actually we wanted to walk to chinatown. but somehow when i reach that magazine road i dunno how to continue walk liao. so i walked furthur up to Zion Road and decided to take bus to somewhere else. haha.. ok, anyway, ya we went to that club yesterday. it was ladies night and its free. Mei gave me vodka sprite. i think tt taste nice. but i think vodka lime is nicer. Mei din like that drink. anyhow, she and Eny kept "ta-ing". i cannot afford to drink so much. learnt my lesson. had one glass of vodka lime e last time and i'm close to sleep-walking. somemore today gotta work leh. now.. i have something to confess..

i drank onli half glass.

wahaha =x

my friends insisted tt i finish tt glass of vodka sprite. somehow when i drank close to 3/4 and dun feel like drinking already. and also afraid tt i'll report sick today. they all keep saying i drink very slow lor. sadded. haha.. Eny asked me if i had finished e drink.. cos my friends all finish 2 glass liao and i still haven finish!! so i lied to Eny. i said "ya, i finish liao!" Eny was smart. she asked me to show her my glass. but i was even smarter. i showed her one of e empty glasses on e table. and she said "good!" WAHAHAHA =x pls lor, e lights are so dim there, she dunno whose glass i took. haha =x

realised something. there weren't pretty gals there leh. onli see some wild gals whose clothes are close to nothingness. and some gals who have good body. so i guess e guys there onli touch and ogle at their figures. they dun care if u're pretty or not. jus let them touch can le. cheapo neh neh =x saw a guy dacning real close to a gal and he successfully hit on her. saw them exchanging phone number and they went somewhere else. e guy had his hand at her waist. dun understand leh, y e gal want him. tt guy is so short. onli abt e same height as me with my heels on. probably abt 165 - 168cm. din managed to have a good look at e guy's face. lights so dim lor, suffer from night blindness..

went to e dancefloor and finally get see how Mei dances. wah liao, she really can dance lor. siao gina. dance non-stop. and as for me? i can't dance for nuts! so i went there nli shake shake a bit. haha.. in e end i think i did dance bah. (if u consider wad i did was dance.) but i really enjoyed bumping my butt into Mei's butt. tt was fun leh. but i lose la. her butt so big. and she's quite forceful. i almost flew. luckily i held onto Eny man.

today..
very unproductive. haiz, useless mah, wad to do. i really dun have creative cells. anyway, decided to be guai kia and come home early. and also to watch e 7pm show. have been missing it for 3days already. and most probably will be missing it tml too.

ooo yes! friday's here again! i look forward to every weekend. apart from having to wake up early for work, i can be nocturnal, and most importantly, it represents hope. though hope is small and there is no light tt i can see. dot dot dot.

jol suggested going to sentosa on sat. its not a bad idea. haven been there for ages. zhen xian said its damn romantic to go there and to watch sunset. i wanna see how romantic that is. though i'll be going with ppl like Mei and Eny la.. how to be romantic.. though jol is a nice gal, hey remember.. i'm straight! haha.. ok la, i'm not trying to say anything.. friends also good mah! wad are we w/o friends?! i'll be nothing w/o them. i'll bored to death cos no one will be around to crap with me. i'll explode and die cos no one will be around to listen to my troubles, problems and ranting. i'll have ugly and old clothes to wear cos no one acc me go shopping. lastly one very important thing.. i would have failed my exams cos no one let me see their ans. wei~~ i'm not tt kind of person hor. e last eg is meant to be a joke. i where will look at ppl's ans right? onli ppl look at mine lor. wahaha =x ok la, serious. i am nothing w/o my friends. so ya, i will spend tt moment to watch sunset with jol, mei and eny. and i'll try to imagine tt its a very romantic scene de. *opps* think i sound mian qiang? =x

wth, i dunno wad i'm toking abt. on a serious note, i miss all my friends (& hope). a lot. =)

shall end this entry with a quote by my cosin.

"i once said love was everything. but u're not nothing without it."

Hui:

after much struggle, i still can't get u out of my mind. i never believe in love at first sight until i met u in carrefour at suntec abt 3+months ago. i jus love u so much. after knowing more abt u, i jus can't resist e temptation of having u by my side all e time. u're so cool and sleek. u're too good for me and i tot i can never have u. my world was once again filled with hope when i tot i could own u. but i was wrong. i'm jus a humble gal. i noe myself well. i'm so fickle-minded when it comes to such things, but wad i wanna say is truly from e bottom of my heart. no others attract me e way like u do. for all these while, i have not laid eyes on other spieces of ur kind. apart from tt, jealousy engulfs me when i see others near u.

*sigh*

my dear sony ericsson k750i.. when can i ever have u??

*sigh*

i swear i'll make u mine.

Hui:

lol.. winamp's playing one of my fav songs. Somewhere I Belong by Linkin Park. reminds me of e times when i used to sing this song with Jana and crapping abt wanting to shout e lines of e chrous when we were at ECP. we're violent gals la, we liked that Cradle 2 The Grave soundtrack, Go To Sleep by Eminem, DMX, Obie Trice. still in love with that song. =x

hmm, was listening to Luo Jia Liang's songs earlier on. that explains my nick. from his songs! wondering y i have not seen ting online. is she busy packing for her trip? tot i can chat with her once more b4 she go. oh wells, its ok.

gonna meet up with si eny + Mei later. no worries, not cos i have some deep hatred for eny. its jus tt we're used to addressing each other this way. she would call me Meanie Hui (actually e name i gave myself la =x) and i would call her Si Eny. well, i think it fits her well. *opps* wonder how was e date for Mei and her victim yesterday. she said confirm chop headshot wor. i wan to noe e details!! am waiting for mei to call me when she's done with her stuffs and i'll report to jubilee bus stop to meet her in full battle order. meting eny 6pm at toa payoh. i swear she's gonna be late. i mean mei. -_-

hoho, i see da ge online now. ---> paiseh sidetrack

ahh, wad should i do while waiting for mei's full battle order? sian leh. shall go read up some articles bah.

ting:

in jo ann's place now. i swear that ever since the holidays started, her place has become my second home. i've seen her almost every single day. whoa. then again, i love her living room. it has the most soft, comfortable carpet ever. plus two of the world's cosiest beanbags! i LOVE the beanbags! contemplating getting one for my own apartment. hmmm.

watched the australian football league 2005 grand finals this afternoon. sydney versus west coast (where the hell is that? western australia?). ira was the only one supporting sydney. the guys were supporting west coast, jo and i were undecided. i then decided to root for the underdog. it was a brilliant match though... really exciting. west coast never gave up, coming back strongly to take the lead during the third quarter from 21-39. wheeee! 6-pointer goals are so exciting. unfortunately, their luck gave out during the fourth quarter, whereby sydney once again took the lead and kept it. grrrrr. west coast lost by a mere 4 points! :(:(:( ira was the only one celebrating, where the rest of us were shrieking throughout the last 5 minutes. gosh, i love watching sports. though i can't understand why they'd call it FOOTBALL when they use their hands for handballs and such. australians are weird.

the whole of australia must have been watching the match. when i went back after that, it felt like a ghost town, with the occasional international student sighting. felt nice to have the whole melbourne to myself for once.

went out for dinner after that and while walking to meet ira, suba and i bumped into mag and her friends. mag was excitedly blabbering about an injured pigeon and after we parted ways, before we could recover from that surprise, we saw javin with his arms thrown around a girl. whoa. that really threw me off track. i couldn't formulate a thought for the next minute. it's not like him having a girlfriend is so surprising, it's just that it was really unexpected. no wonder i haven't been seeing him around this sem! now i know where he's been hiding out at.

ira was seriously courting death during dinner. there were TONS of west coast fans and ira was just unable to wipe that smirk off her face. to add on to that, she kept yelling out, "sydney won!". i kept shushing her, because there wasn't enough sydney fans to come to her rescue should the west coast fans decide to bash her up. sheez. *shakes head*

staying over at jo's place tonight. and waiting for a birthday boy to make his appearance. friends. what would we do without them? there are always points in time whereby you wonder how different (and sad) your life would be should these people never cross paths with you.

heading to the royal melbourne show tomorrow! then, our long-awaited grampians trip on monday! :D how good can life get during the holidays (except for the fact that ALL my assignments are due immediately when school reopens)?

watching gladiator now. i personally don't care whether russell crowe's character live or die. but why must they kill the tiger???

Hui:

*lets out a huge sigh*

dun ask me wad happened. am feeling some emptiness inside me. am feeling transparent. not as in i feel like as if i'm invisible, but i mean i'm clear, and u can see thru me, and noe wad's inside me. that's e way i am. i dun see any reason to hide myself. i dun show doesn't mean i'm hiding ya? becos i'm (quite) transparent, i feel a sense of insecurity sometimes. its like u noe wad i'm thinking, u noe wad i wan, u noe wad i am but i dunno a single shit abt u. jus in case some of u may be wondering, nope, its not abt guys. neither its the time of e month. *sigh*

enuff of whining/complaining. lets move onto something else. =)

weekend is here again! woohoo~~ wanted to ask eny out after work today. but that gal is being "booked". mei said she'll be going clarke quay for her mareting thingie, and jol will be having OT. taitai having battle with virus and she lost. need to recuperate. so sad right. so i asked zhen xian out for coffee. we din have coffee. instead, we went kfc and had ice lemon tea (that's for me) and he had his dinner there. we met up quite late ah. 9pm. oh well, he was having a chat with his men and left his camp late. and oh, here i am, singing his praises again. lol.. he's such a sweet guy. his gf lives in boon lay and for all e while they had been together, he has NEVER let her go home alone when they hang out. even when she goes to his place, he'll still see her home. and he's not that kind of guy who'll not treat a gal gentlemanly unless he likes u. ok la ok la, i noe wad's on ur mind (ting and mei!). he's taken i noe. but i swear i'm not habouring any evil thoughts man. we're jus plain good friends. its nice to have a close guy friend whom u can chat and crap abt ANYTHING under e sun. and i think he can be one. of cos i'll not be too close to him, its not appropriate. and i'm very sure he loves his galfriend a lot. i even suggested some of e things he can do with her leh.

ahh, tml is sat. xinmei and her victim going out wor. then me leh me leh? jol is out, cos she is mei li de ben nv ren. she's back with randy. confirm chop guarantee not free. siowshan's going out with marcus. shan?? church lor. ting? IN AUSSIE LAR. sadded. e guys like alex, hong, kelen, zihao are IMPOSSIBLE (haha taitai, i caps this word. reminds u of someone? lol). cos i wun go out with them if there're no other females. and most likely than not, i'll puke blood and die jus toking to that bunch of useless guys. very indecisive leh. though i'm indecisive sometimes also lar, still, they are guys! oh btw, its their first bookout today. haha, interested to look at their most IN and TRENDY hairstyle in tekong. e hairstyle that will never ever go out of fashion there man. mus take a look.

ok, back to wad should i do tml. ya, wad should i do?? i noe liao, go find my poly classmates. hehe =D that shall be it. contact them tml.

feel like playing gb, but no kahki online leh. dunno where jess go. dun tell me she sleep liao? that xinmei is nowhere to be seen. hmm, actually her comp is down la. haha =x i dunno wad she do to her comp man, it seems like it will be "under maintainance" on a regular basis. and usually its gonna be a long time. oo toking abt gb, i'm damn rich there. i have 1 million + gold! i have earned my first million dollars (gold). haha bullshit and lame right, but now my gold is less than half a million liao. cos i bought things =x oh yah~~ mus upload e printscreen for ting to see. there was once i was toking and we were toking on e phone and she heard e music in e background. she said that kind of music doesnt go with killing mobiles. she said its supposed to be morbid. (did i spell that word correctly?) so e music should not be those cute cute kind. let me show u man, e graphic is quite cute de la.

ting:

the only time accounting seems to rock? the only time when everything else in the world seems a zillion times better than it really is?

the only time when i love everything else? the only time i'd much rather be doing global, econs or law??

the only thing that makes your spirits spiral towards basement level?

is when i'm stuck doing a freaking finance assignment, which is due TOMORROW and worth 15% of my final grade.

is when there is NOTHING useful in my lecture notes.

is when even the internet doesn't help.

is when i'm convinced i'm the dumbest idiot on earth for not switching out of this damn subject altogether way way earlier.

is when i realise(to put it very crudely) i'm ****ed for this subject.

Hui:

lol.. hong jus sent me a pic of himself. was chatting with him and he webcam with me. and i watched him watch tv -.- so i asked him wad was e tv showing and asked him to turn e webcam so tt i can watch as well. haha so fun. anyways, here's e pic. wahaha..

Hui:

can't agree with ting less, but hey, that was wad i told ya right? some things are jus beyond control. if some things are be controlled, it'll be jus way too good ya? =P reading ting's last post, am getting really curious jus wad went on. so tt something weren't what we thought and u jus felt like laughing? share it man! i wanna noe. u noe how i'm like. e ever curious (or u may say, kpo) Hui.

met a sickening lao uncle in e bus on my way home from work. that lao uncle was sitting behind me, and i dunno why the hell did he keep using his kneecap to knock my seat. it was damn irritating lor. there wasn't any empty seats that i sit in. finally he stopped. i felt relieved for a split second. cos for e next, my hair was "trapped". that lao uncle was sitting crossing his legs and my hair was "squashed" between his kneecap and e seat. what the hell?! i tried to move abit, give him e hint tt he should take his damn knee off. but he didn't!! damn pissed leh! managed to "rescue" my hair b4 i reach my stop. b4 i alight, i glared at him. he still got e cheek to look at me. stupid lao uncle! i swear i'll still be able to recognise him even if he has been burnt to the ashes. raa~~

i dunno y i feel so sleepy at work nowadays. i can sleep with my eyes open. dun laugh/shock yet. let me finish wad i wanna say. i'm feel so sleepy to e extend where i can close my eyes w/o realising. and i think i dreamt on a few occasion. i dunno. its like, i'm thinking of e program and i wanted to go click on something. e next thing i realise, i wasn't doing anything. it's like my mind jus went blank. this is scary. i swear i gonna sleep early tonight.

but b4 that, let me play some games. wahaha =x

ting:

i love finance. i love finance. i love finance. i love finance. i love finance. i love finance.

I LOVE FINANCE!!!!

i really really do!!!!!

LOVE LOVE LOVE!!

*nods head vigourously*

am i the only one who is still unconvinced? sigh.

sitting in the library for 5 hours straight staring at my finance notes obviously did some serious messing around with my brain. i feel like laughing insanely at myself now i've snapped out of it. thank God it was just a passing thing. i got confused over something i didn't even want. how dumb is that? hui of course was no help, she kept laughing and saying "i told you so". -_- well babe, it wasn't what we thought it was. and thankfully, it's not gonna happen. so our (or rather, my) worse nightmare is over.

it's true how some things are beyond our control. if we could control the way we feel, i would love finance by now. if we could control how we feel, i would hate chocolates, ice-cream and all the other stuff which make the fat go straight to your hips and stay there.

i realised that the more you bottle your feelings, the stronger the dam becomes. there will be a point in time whereby all you want to do is let everything out, but you could sit and stare into space for 2 hours and no tears would come. the dam wouldn't wash away.

on a lighter note, i'm hungry. make that famished. how the hell do people survive detox diets??? the next three days is gonna be hell. adel advised me to fall in love, then break up with the guy. it is bound to make your appetite disappear. huh. and who do i fall in love with may i ask? contact with hot guys at the moment: nada.

jo ann is MEAN. she is eating CHIPS!! RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME!

Hui:

fresh post!! e conversation below was less than 5mins ago. i think its rather amusing. i dunno y. jus feel so. was telling ting abt my previous post and asked her to go read. so here goes..
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Ratsneve says:
i blogged
Ratsneve says:
hehehe
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
hahahahha ok...
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
im hungry
Ratsneve says:
u reading now?
Ratsneve says:
haha i'm eating grapes
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
ME TOO!
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
LOL
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
high five man!
Ratsneve says:
really?!
Ratsneve says:
OMG
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
i just went to wash grapes!
Ratsneve says:
hahahaha
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
oh wow
Ratsneve says:
HIGH 5 MAN
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
telepathy
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
hahahhaa
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
what colour are ur grapes?
Ratsneve says:
purple
Ratsneve says:
urs?
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
oh
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
damn
Ratsneve says:
green?
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
green
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
LOL
Ratsneve says:
LOLL
Ratsneve says:
i think tt was funny. gonna post in blog. can?
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
hahahah okies
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
paste our conversation lor
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
LOL
Ratsneve says:
haha yah~~
Forget love. I'd rather fall in chocolate. says:
*amused*
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so this explains e colour i used ya? wahaha =P

Hui:

it was mid-autumn festival last sunday. no festive mood. woke up pretty late, had lunch and surfed e net as usual. my cousin came, and we updated each other abt our love life. seeing tt it was both alex and hong's bday, we (mei, me and e 2 bday boys) went ktv~! e mic was good. not much of echo. i like.. but my singing still sux. haha.. alex's good at singing e "My Anata" woot~ superstar sia =x anyway, we din buy anything for them, so we treat them to e ktv lor. heng got the 4hr free voucher sia. if not i can go sweep floor.

went kfc and we had 4 extra zinger burger and 4 drinks! FREE. hong and alex went to order 4 zinger meals. and hong carried e burgers and drinks back first. at tt moment, the counter change ppl. (paiseh la, english lousy) e new cashier tot we were not given e drinks and burgers. so she gave us extra. hahaha~~ it was so funny. we couldn't finish la. actually onli mei and me cant finish la. alex and hong had e 2 burgers, 2 drinks and e cheese fries. oh man~~ i can see tt hong was stuffed to e neck already. he's almost e same size as me la. i'm so full after having 1 meal. i cannot eat e extra burger anymore. i asked alex didi if he was full. he said he's OKAY. wad does he mean by OKAY?! confirm chop + guarantee chop not full la. power man. but come to think of it, his size matters k.. actually if u were to compare e food he ate, ONLY 2 burgers, 1 popcorn chicken, 1 cheese fries and 2 drinks. that is considered little to him le leh.. very little compared to his size. cos he's triple Jiehuis. wahaha =x

now ting's telling me something funny. abt her. but i understand how it feels. i truly do. aiya, but this kind of thing cannot control one mah, if its something tt cannot be control, i can't help u wor. if i had e ability to help u, i might as well help myself =x or if u can help me.. haiz.. haha nvm la, dun worry ting!! it will be fine!! whoops, dun hit or curse me! *trying not to laff*

ting:

i ought to have at least started on my finance assignment by now. but guess what i did today instead. i went SHOPPING!!!! :):):)

never quite understood why people engaged in retail therapy. until today. in the midst of it all, i went on a high. then again, you can't blame me, for melbourne's shopping rocks! to add to that, a couple of shops in melbourne central were having SALES! brilliant! it's so nice to live in a country with four seasons.. at the end of every season, you get sales and price slashes as stores scurry to clear their stock.

i predict another shopping spree in the very near future, at either smith street or bridge road.

my favourite purchase of the day? a top which says "forget love. i'd rather fall into chocolate." :D

holidays. pure bliss.

ps: hey adel.. you know i don't have the heart to do that to ya. *grins* what's your size? melbourne has pretty amazing t-shirts!

the belt i bought today...

isn't it cute!?

ting:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR GOR! the one and only alex lim who makes up for me not having a brother. :) may this day be special in all its ways and blessings rain upon you.

i know what it is you're seeking for but trust me. it WILL come. and when it does, it will be well worth the wait. :):):) good things are worth waiting for are they not? maybe that's what makes them all the more sweeter.

thanks for being there for me whenever i'm down and out. only YOU can cheer me up in your very own unique way.

once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

pssss: *whispers* the wallet is REALLY nice! trust hui and me! it'll be a belated birthday present ok? *grins*

also,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to arthur and jin hong. many happy returns!

Hui:

jus feel like posting an entry. hmm, i wish i can be there to comfort u. =)

had quite a fufilling and happy day today. woke up once at 9+am and coincidentaly received 2 sms at e same time. one of which was from siow shan.. asking me to meet her at orchard after her "perming hair session". e hairdresser seriously did a much better job this time. and she look "wow". pretty!! btw, i finally bought e watch!! wahaha.. buy liao no need to keep thinking it.

met up with zhen xian after that. (also at orchard) he's still as gentleman as b4, still e desired guy tt i think almost all gals wish for. siowshan saw him.. but i din intro them to each other. why?? u all mus be thinking. its cos siowhan was standing somewhere near me, and she's pretending that we are both strangers. dun ask me y. i dunno man. she say she shy. hahaha.. she sms me after tt, saying he's not bad looking. but come on, he's taken! haha.. nice to be friends la. hear him tok abt him and his galfriend. *sweet sweet* had a very nice chat with him. and great crapping session too! went to meet another friend after tt. *bleh*

am still chatting away now, though i'm feeling my eyelids are getting heavier. shall continue with my chatting session!

ting:

i had a very good time last night, which was ironic given the circumstances. it was the last day of school, everyone was feeling relaxed and hence, it called for a night out. i'm glad i went out. if i had been alone, i wouldn't have known how to cope. even in broad daylight, if fear is this intense, what would it have been like last night if i was all alone?

was so grateful for the companionship of wei kee and pei fei last night. they were there for me when all i wanted to do was cry. i never knew pain could start at the very core of you, then radiate till it hurts so much to even breathe. till it hurts so much you forget what pain even feels like. there are no words for fear this big.

was so glad for the movie, which certainly took my mind off things. was so glad that the three of us decided to drop in on jo ann on the way home, despite the fact it was almost 1am. was so glad we lingered in her apartment till 3am, because by the time the guys walked me back, it was 4am and it was all i could do to keep awake till i changed and tumbled into bed.

i wonder how many times i've plea-bargained with God. i wonder if that is a sin. i know the best reassurance would come from Him and i know that it WILL come. that part of me trusts in Him so much i know He heard me and things would turn out fine. that part of me trusts in Him so much i don't want to worry, because worrying signifies you're doubting Him. but there's another part of me which can't help being human. can't help being scared. can't help the tears that come.

i've never been afraid of the dark. but as i sit here typing this, i wish night would never come.

Hui:

pardon me while i say something quite lame.. will all my friends who visit this blog drop me a msg in e tagboard so tt i noe who's reading? i think there are much more ppl than i noe of who are reading this. this is quite scary. not tt i'll say anything bad, but still, its quite scary. can never imagine who are e ppl who get to noe abt ur life ya?

did something really stupid, something which let me regret on sunday night. still can't believe i have e damn guts to do that. ahhh...

its kind of annoying to keep receiving sms from ppl i dun wan to receive from. e feeling is like.. u hear e phone beep, u dashed to it, and u see e sender's name and u go "hai!!" shall not say who the person/s is/are. y do e "wrong" ppl always sms me? raa...

in other news, my work is okay. has stopped doing crystal reports for a little while and worked on a web portal. my designing skills sux. still can't design those that look very pro. did some html thingie. felt happy! have not been using html codes for quite sometime le. from wad i remember, e last webpage tt i created was more than a year ago, when i was still in PowerGas for my attachment. had nothing to do after completing e application then, so created some webpages to kill time. =x

alex di di jus greeted me with an "oy" over msn. how could he do that?!! OMG.. so "mei da mei xiao"! mus teach him more manners when i see him. other than this, i have 2 more msn chat windows on my task bar. arthur and chin ho. yeah. u heard me right. chin ho. OMG. i can't be bothered to reply him. so annoying!! dun believe me? here's e evidence:

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nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
yo jie hui
Ratsneve says:
ya?
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
am i disturbing u??
Ratsneve says:
no la
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
care for a chat?
Ratsneve says:
ok
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
so wat u have over there?
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
cow??
Ratsneve says:
ya
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
u draw urself one?
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
woa
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
that is very nice leh
Ratsneve says:
no la
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
talent!!!
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
haha can do one for me too?
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
u choose cow becuz u r born in the year of cow??
Ratsneve says:
no
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
dennn?
Ratsneve says:
it doesnt need any reason ya?
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
haha
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
maybe there is
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
too attracted by ur picture liao
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
have a style of urself
Ratsneve says:
pls lor -_-
Ratsneve says:
tt is jus a pic
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
haha
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
but u draw it urself mah
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
so during the draw
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
by the words of professioner
Ratsneve says:
i nv said i drew it myself!!
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
haha
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
is it??
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
that is so sad
Ratsneve says:
i used a d-cam to take it
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
try to bluff u also cant
Ratsneve says:
u kept assuming
Ratsneve says:
tt is sad
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
oic
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
haha
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
if ask too detail
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
den dont sound pro liao
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
haha
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
so cant trick ppl
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
haha
Ratsneve says:
wat??
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
haha anything
nameless_britney@hotmail.com says:
for fun??
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dear friends, isnt tt very lame? OMG, i'ld rather be bored to death than to chat with him. i nv reply him after that. haha =x

haiz.. sian la. i go read astronomy article liao.

ting:

an interesting observation is that "fun" recharges more than "rest" does. my extremely unproductive weekend (due to no one's fault but my own) kicked off on friday night, when i went over to mag's place for a fattening dinner and a LOST marathon. i'm not such a LOST freak that i watch it over and over again, it was because both mag and suba have yet to finish watching it. gosh.. the both of them polished off the remaining episodes in one sitting. i was impressed.

due to the incredibly late night which resulted, i spent three quarters of saturday in bed, then had an extremely entertaining time chatting with the likes of adel, alex and hui. my internet credit ran out as a result. grrrr. and i found out from adel that neela is back in singapore! what are the chances she would bring a box of mooncakes back with her?

church yesterday was cool, made more friends because, despite me being bone tired, i was feeling sociable. met this guy who is doing his MASTERS in FINANCE!!! he must be God's gift from heaven. to further prove that point, his mobile subscriber is 3 (3 to 3 calls are free)! *dances around* he is gonna get TONS of calls from me bugging him about various finance questions. poor guy. *evil grin* i think i should make friends with a lawyer (for business law) and the CEO of a multinational (for global) as well so i can have all grounds covered.

lunch yesterday was awesome as well.. we headed to this hong kong restaurant and guess what we ordered! roasted duck. steamed chicken. barbequed pork (in other words, char siew). roasted pork (in other words, siew yoke). and they gave us FREE vegetable soup which tasted HEAVENLY!!! hmmmmm..! satisfied my asian food craving for the time being. because there was 11 of us, the bill amounted to $11.70 each, which for that amount of food, is incredibly cheap.

bumped into ira when i went back to uni after that. yeah on a sunday. i figured i wouldn't study if i came back to my apartment, hence that decision. well... studying wouldn't be a very good description of how i spent my time there, seeing i didn't accomplish anything. but the trip to uni resulted in ira deciding to come back to college square with me to disturb suba. which further resulted in us having a mini party, feasting over rockmelon and chocolate chip cookies. the end result was ira staying the night.

so now that all the fun is over, i'm desperately trying to get my assignment out by today. i REFUSE to stay up on tuesday night again and in addition, i'm meeting pei fei and wei kee after class tomorrow to further discuss our grampians trip. so yeah. there is something about doing work after watching a movie or having a relatively good time that seems almost indecent. there should be statutes against these sort of things.

Hui:

went to Village at fareast square (wait, did i get e place right?) after work on friday with a couple of colleagues. it was an exact clone of marche! mus thanks gladys for inviting me! otherwise i would have missed out lots of fun and will go jus straight home after work le. see.. i no life right.. haha.. anyway wasn't expecting to go out la. cos din ask anyone out and no one asks me out, so i jus brought myself to work. no bag. wore until v causual lor. and then, they picked this day to take pictures! e flash light of e camera was so strong. was blinded for a few secs. with tt strong white flash, confirm chop capture all e flaws on my face le. ><

went to a pub and had my first glass of vodka lime yesterday! high tio sia. i mean, feel sleepy and tired.. brain not functioning well like tt. laggy.. but i'm physically fine. (mentally okay too, jus need a sec more to process lol =x) dunno y they keep saying tt i'm drunk.. >< but nonetheless, it was a great outing! had lots of fun together. hope there'll be a next time ya? =)

alright its late now, but i'm still not sleepy. wanna play a few rounds of gb first. feeling hungry. no food. damn.

ting:

i'm bored. my headache has disappeared for the time being... yay!

in the midst of doing my laundry and washing dishes, i taught myself something. was actually going through the conversation leona and i had in my head. she was commenting that i was really brave, in making the decision to leave home (for lack of a better term) and come all the way here myself. well, aren't we all? but i guess, past the initial stage, things get better. it was then that i realised nothing is as difficult as what you make it out to be. it's the fear of the unknown which holds us back, the first step which is the hardest to take. that leap of faith. while you're airborne, it doesn't seem as though you'd make a safe landing. but back on solid ground, the leap doesn't seem as bad as you thought it to be.

despite all this shit-crap load of work, i never once regretted my decision to come over to melbourne uni. singapore might be home but how do you change for the better if you refuse change?

my thoughts wandered some more and then realised that essentially, the key to happiness is not being concerned with what others think. why should you care when they are not the ones living your life? if you care so much, it doesn't really matter where you are, you'd still be unhappy. you could be in singapore where it's home but you might feel upset at how foreigners are treated as first class citizens and how people literally fall to their knees and worship anyone who speaks with an accent. at how you might like that sort of treatment, but fall short because you are ONLY singaporean and not worthy of recognition. so you might look for greener pastures and relocate. but if you're gonna be so conscious about what others think, it doesn't matter if you're in australia, the united states, europe or even india. you feel you stand out. you feel that people judge you because you are different and the fact that you are not one of them. you feel discriminated against. and hence, you'll never be happy.

being in australia taught me (funnily enough) how to be comfortable with myself and be the person i am. and it made clearer the fact that we are all God's creation. we are too human and every single one of us is prone to screw ups and mistakes. common misconception asians have is that caucasians walk on water. but it really doesn't mean that, just because their eyes and hair are of a different colour, they are any less human than we are.

take what happened in new orleans for example. when disaster strikes, even the strongest will call out for aid.

ting:

stuck in school. no one seems to be interested in having lunch save for me. (excited squeal from jo ann as she realises what i'm doing.)

i hate global now. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

macro is my last and only hope.

are my constant headaches a result of insufficient sleep or weather changes?

sigh.

ting:

sitting in the law library now and falling asleep in front of the computer. just submitted my macro assignment one a couple of hours ago and am now waiting for the response part of the assignment to be out. it won't be available till 2pm. zzzzzzzzzzz.

i've been surviving on so little sleep it's insane. on average, i get 4 hours of sleep a night. it's no wonder my electricity bill is so bloody high!

bless the person who discovered caffeine.

checked my email and saw something my cousin sent me, titled "the importance of adequate sleep". deleted it without opening it. what's the point, seeing i can't get what i want?

2pm is taking a freaking long time to come. might as well head home for bed.

8 more chapters of global to go. sigh.

Hui:

woo, shall show ya guys e power of eye expression!! e 2 pics below shall give a very very good example.


wah an evil flower and a bian tai looking pig!



ooo sadded. they're actually so innocent looking!

PS: with credits to gladys' drawing, her pig head and my flower mirror! last but not least, e camera and e owner of e camera!

Hui:

hohoho koko crunch. bleh. bored. troubled (over nothing). fan. raa..

who shares e same thinking as me? who shares e same view as me? who understands me?

boooo.

anyways, went for interview today. nothing much to comment abt.

have been wanting to go shopping so much. as in, want to buy something for myself. pamper myself. be it clothes, accessories, or whatever. took fancy on a titus watch. actually liked tt watch for quite sometime le. abt 1-2months ago. but its ex lor. $143 after 20% discount. i think it looks nice on me. tried it yesterday for mei and jol to see. they say its nice too. so in all i have 4 ppl who said its nice! jol, mei, ping chung and tim. need to ask siowshan liao. see wad's her final say.

anyway, anyhow, pls go and visit e link i have on this blog! Males Exposed. wahaha. lets make its readership go higher than that dumbass XiaXue. spread it around man

ting:

pei fei and wei kee just left my apartment (thank God for that!).. they came over to discuss details for the grampians trip. two over hours with those two people and i'm thinking how the hell i'm gonna survive 5 long days with them. how many times have they threatened to push me off cliffs or into waterfalls? groans. and kanishka also threatened to push me off some mountain top when he confimed his attendance on friday. what is it with guys and pushing girls off highlands? i think in this case, i better make sure ALL activities are on low ground.

just to quote something pei fei said, which made suba and i crack up like nobody's business. we were checking out eateries and he clicked on the wedding dinners menu buttons, saying that he'd be going there to get married. i started teasing him relentlessly about how his "bride" ain't gonna be there when he said.. "you guys don't have to give me any wedding presents. all you have to do is bring me a bride". can you imagine this sort of lameness? for 5 long days and nights? ughhhh.. suba? you sure you don't want to back out?

by the way, to all folks going for the grampians trip... BOOKS AND STUDY/PRINTED (except maps and brochures) MATERIALS ARE STRICTLY NOT ALLOWED. NEITHER IS THE DICUSSION OF ANYTHING VAGUELY RELATED TO MACROECONOMICS, FINANCE, LAW OR WHATEVER YOU GUYS ARE TAKING. offenders will risk losing their books and notes to the waterfalls. heard that, ira?

Hui:

sian!! woke up at 9+am, seeing tt it's still early and i have nothin to do, i went back to sleep again, waking up at every 2hr interval b4 i finally managed to get my ass off my bed at 3pm

wanted to go comex, but seeing tt i woke up so late and its gonna be a hell lot of ppl there, i dropped e idea of joining zizhe and fat they all. asked him to help me keep a lookout for e phone and d-cam. haha..

went lunch with gladys and friends yesterday. it was their last day of IA, and since my usual lunch kahki went on course. met one of m colleagues on e way for lunch. she jus finished attending e course and are waiting for e others to go for lunch. am shock to noe not onli e hub ppl are there. hahaha =x anyway, i din follow them. went to one of my friend's parents stall for hokkien mee. it's nice! but too bad e fan kept blowing at our table, spoil e mood. e wind is really strong lor. yesteday was prob one of my longest lunch break. from abt 1pm to 3pm. haha cant control la, it was raining and traffic jam. sigh, no one to chat with me anymore during work during e last 2 weeks of my work. i'll be so bored then :s

went marche with jol, qian and jess. (and to pass qian bday present also) my first time to dine in marche. it was quite chaotic for me la, cos din noe wad to eat and dunno how to pronounce e name of e food! haha so throw face right.. anyway e food wasn't as nice as i had expected it to be. i wanted to eat e wafle with ice-cream but i'm so full after eating e potato thing with sausage. sorry la, dunno wad's tt thing called. haha =x

its gonna be 4pm now.. so sian.. raa..

Hui:

ahh, e reception really sux at hub. got ppl call me for interview and i cant hear them! and they cant hear me too. haiz, but i think its ok to let tt call pass bah, its doing helpdesk work. call logging, 1st level trouble-shooting over phone. sounds really familiar. tt's wad i'm extracting e info for. e crystal reports. haha.. but scared kanna scolded la. somemore e person said will post me to an army camp. hmm.. but i'm kinda bad.. cos when she called me, and e reception is bad.. and in e end i rejected e interview. she sound pissed. oh man, i kanna blacklisted in tt company le. haha.. actually tot of going for e interview to get more interview experience.. but i dun wanna take 2 half-day leave.. i dun like to take leave. not cos of e money thingie.. its.. i jus dun like lor. y did i say 2 half-day? cos i'll be having an interview on monday. have not toked to my incharge abt it. think he'll be ok with tt.

watched e superstar show jus now. hell lot of advertisements lor -_- one of e judeges is really lame. dot dot dot. anyway i still like xinhui and kelly. what a great voice they both have. e champion goes to weilian. actually i feel tt it doesnt matter to kelly who won. cos at e end of e day, there's bound to be some company who wants to sign contract with her. and i believe she will outshine weilian. i'm not looking down on weilian, but i mus really say tt kelly is better. much better. as in voice. am not toking abt dances and all tt, cos tt wun be fair to him. =)

tml is friday!! yes! weekend is here again! can rest and sleep all i want!